I forget the eggs.

Do you ever feel like you are trying so hard to make things normal, or real, or meaningful, that you end up making nothing worth enjoying?  


Eggs. If you're gonna make a cake, you have to have them. They are like the special ingredient that make the ingredients bind together.  If you mix all the ingredients but forget the eggs, you get a dry, crumbly cake. Is it cake? sort of. You can eat it if you want. But you won't enjoy it. 


So many times I have tried to make things perfect without adding that important ingredient that holds it all together.  When I go about my day and I try to do everything right, I feel like I fail often.  I throw in the ingredients, like, take care of myself, take care of the kids, be a good mom, be a good wife, pick up the house, go for a walk, read the kids Bible stories, etc. etc., and then I expect to have this great feeling of accomplishment  and see this beautiful "cake" (my heart) at the end of the day.  But I don't get that.  Because I all to often forget to include the most important ingredient: Jesus time.  Like I seriously get so busy trying to please God that I forget to spend time with Him: the One that holds it all together. He's the common denominator.  He's the reason I do anything I do in the first place. Why do I try to be a good mom? Why do I try to be a good wife? For Him. To honor my Father. 


This verse was on my heart today:
 John 15:9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love." 


I forget to remain there. I obey. I think about Him. I just get too busy with that that I don't TALK to Him.  And He wants to offer me so much more than salvation.  He wants me to live as a citizen of that place now.  And that doesn't start with a list of things "to do".  It starts with my relationship with Him.  Without that ingredient, I fall apart. I crumble. All my ingredients do not hold together. But if I start there, then everything else I do holds together.   


I like cake. It helps me make sense of life. And it tastes good.